Friday, May 19, 2017
Tuesday, May 16, 2017
Also, I have quite a few epiphanies while I'm solving those boards. The way I sometimes solve a difficult board, or find a path after multiple failed attempts, or take too long to discover patterns that were right in front of me all the while, all seem like metaphors for how I am doing at 'life'. If only I showed diligence in recording them as and when they occurred to me! But then, that seems like such a chore while I'm thoroughly engaged and enjoying myself at the game. I guess I will make an effort from now on. It's only a matter of switching to a different app and typing in the words that have already occurred to me.
Wednesday, May 10, 2017
Friday, April 21, 2017
I have grown to fear failure to such an extent that the smallest of tasks intimidate me. Like today morning, when I had to wash a soiled mattress cover. I had already soaked it in antiseptic and hot water last night, folded - to avoid getting any "material" directly on my hands. That was the smartest part of the task, which I had already gotten over with. This morning, instead of making breakfast, I asked the husband to get some snacks, because I wanted to take care of that soaked cover first, so that I could add it to a wash cycle in the machine with other doggie-cleaning fabrics. I told him that it would take me "at least" 15 mins to do that, during which he could get us breakfast so that we don't delay the tasks to be done further in the day. As if I couldn't put at end date on a cloth-washing task!
Then I actually went into the bathroom, got started on it methodically, as I had thought out in my head but dared not verbalize - for fear of failure - and I was actually done in 15 minutes. I was thrilled to find out I could complete a task, and to do it in the time I estimated! And it meant that my estimate was correct!
I've become wary of putting out estimates, because I've been failing to deliver (as per my own expectations, which are typically higher than what others expect of me, I've noticed). And, oh, just as I am typing this, I had an epiphany. The reason why I fail at achieving what I planned with a task, is because I do too many things at a time. My priorities are constantly shifting. And spend way too much time in my head, overthinking and overanalyzing. Reminds me of those instances when we pass an exit or a turn we're about to take, and the map app audio going: "recalculating..." I think I could do with slowing down a bit and focussing on fewer things.
Friday, February 26, 2016
Ignore me, you book-gobbling monsters who can manage a book or more a day. Or roll your eyes and move on. It's been such a happy, happy time for me, let me enjoy my little triumph over my old self here!
Some of that reading speed has improved quite recently, because I've taken to reading while walking... walking up to the office cafeteria for lunch/coffee when I'm alone, walking up to my desk each day--even though part of it is in the lift, walking back down to the basement to my vehicle before going home. Then, a big chunk of reading happens right before I sleep. The bright phone screen doesn't bother me any more. Thanks again, to my dear, cutie-patootie husband, who downloaded and installed the 'night mode' app on my phone that dims the display even further than the default software allows. Not that I couldn't manage that on my own, but I was just too lazy about it, so after several reminders, he just gave up and did it for me. I make sure to give him a few extra kisses for that every day :P
[Doing a happy dance in my mind before getting back to work so I can wrap up sooner and read more in the night.]
Thursday, February 18, 2016
Are you folk landing here by mistake? Google (or other search engines) directing you to me by mistake? Or just an unfortunate combination or search keywords, maybe?
I feel like throwing up a dialog box asking, 'Did you find this information useful?' like Microsoft (msdn / technet) pages do. Not that I expect anyone to find anything useful in here; it's just me blathering on about myriad things and/or my opinions. But, yeah, how do you land up here? You're not unwelcome, of course, but seeing the stats page just makes me curious. (Confession: I watch the stats page by factor of a few hundreds more than I do actually post here.) Say hello?
Tuesday, June 09, 2015
And I just discovered this thing of beauty...
And then, I read about the art and the weirdness behind it:
I read it the next day, so the previous night I just soak myself into the song and not think about the backstory.